When I don't get facts directly, I make facts up in my head

I can be one of the rudest, most hateful people on the face of this earth. I can store up anger like you wouldn't believe and let it explode.It's funny how hard I have to try when writing things to people to not let foul language slips in the sentence. My human mind can display some of the most terrible things inside,I must admit I'm only human. Inside I carry thoughts,just as evil as those of murderers and thieves and the lowest of sinners in this world.I literally have this sunken feeling in the pit of my stomach realising exactly how lonely I am.

I'm so messed up.