oh what the hell

I really want to continue to stay happy, but how can I when small things push me back? I should be happy.Yet, the one thing I want the most, I apparently can not have. I realize the little things in life do really matter and are just as equivalent, if not more, than the big things. There is always good with the bad and happy with the sad. Dwelling on these bad things from the past though will only cause an unhappy future. Sometimes, you just have to move on. Moving on can be scary. Sometimes people may think if they move on and get on with their life, they will forget something that they will want to keep most memorable. Little do they know, people can move on without forgetting.

letting the past stay in the past and never surface back up

 I've had so much to blog about and yet no interest in doing so. Everything is slow and harsh, it seems. But every now and then things start to look up. I never have anything to say when I actually get one.I think about so much during the day.
And by the time I reach my blog, I have absolutely nothing interesting to write about.Finally its August, I'm looking foward to Raya Holidays I wish I can fly back home, and here goes that homesick feeling strikes again oh No.
This has been the most difficult past few months of my life. Some might say God is punishing me for my actions and choices. A part of me believes I'm just suffering the consequences of getting myself in bad situations, and jumping into things that I should have taken more time to think about and be responsible about. I do know one thing, I've learned from every experience I've encountered. As cliche as it sounds, all of it has made me so much stronger. I have my days, sure. And I feel stressed almost all of the time. I probably just need a good vacation.What I need to do most importantly is stay focused and positive

 peace out.