quick post.

A good night post before I go to bed. Spending time with the family & friends,it feels good to be home.
Things have just been crazy buzy and fun lately. I've been wanting to update but haven't really had the chance.
I don't think I wanna leave this place, I'm not ready to leave and go back to reality. Everything in here makes me happier,I'm blessed with everything I have now.

Inhale,exhale.

It's almost dawn, & I'm still wide awake as usual.Five months ago my life was drastically different than it is today. 2nd semester has finally come to an end everything happened so fast and the next thing I knew by the end of this year I'll be finishing my studies and start my internship next year. Stepping outside to face the reality, waking up without any dreams to fulfils & achieve what's the point living? Somehow I wish I could predict the future or build a time machine, everything its just so unpredictable.  It's amazing how your life can alter so much in a matter of months,days,hours,minutes. I feel like everything bad has happened, and it has all happened at one time.
Why am I so worried? new life, however, took an incredible turn for the worse.
 Finally it's holiday season, I shall put aside all the negative vibes away and start looking forward to this Tuesday trying not to be snobbish. I hope this holiday will be a productive one, and for that I shall start making a plan I don't wanna regret, every moment and chances I have to spent quality time with everyone and cherish every moment with them.
I ain't feeling sleepy at all, I don't even need a cup of coffee to keep me awake.

Adios Amigos!

distraction.

Here Am I blogging when I know I have only few more hours left to study french exam. I was reading trying to memorise and understand every french complication words, it's funny when U translating every words to English it's how a person never learn English vocabulary before, how broken it can be and here am I trying to cope. I've been so anti-social it kills me , but I don't even desire to spend time with the ones I do know. It's like all I want to do is stay in my room watching my favourite Tv show . I suppose my mental, physical, and emotional exhaustion is probably majorly contributing to this lack of sociability. I'm just so annoyed and frustrated with people lately that all I want to do is get away from them. I don't want to be social. I don't want to hang out. I'd rather keep to myself ,I'd almost rather just talk to myself.how weird am I? I pray this is just a phase. Because it's an absolutely horrible way to think and live. But in this moment of time, I'd prefer just keep to myself.
Wish me luck loves, finals exam starting today till thursday! 

crumble.

I'm doing it all right, now that I'm feeling good & refresh. something mysterious in my mind keep on replaying the same shit scene A fallen angel seek for help but there's no one there to come and save her now she's stuck and reality awakens her.Well things are changing, since I've been locking myself up in the room and coming out like a caveman how unproductive is that. Feels like Everything is going backwards,it becomes harder for me to wake up every morning also harder for me to fall asleep every single night.A big part of me feels so empty, feels like I'm emptying more of myself with every moments.I can't puff myself up like I've got everything in my life together.I just don't know how long will this last. Need a break From Earth? what a Joke.

My age does not define me nor does it define my aspirations.

I'm sitting at home with cramps and a stomach ache. Those two things combined just don't do well. I've had so much to think about lately. 

Woke up at noon, had my light lunch and put on a face mask feelin freshy. The weekends was great, had fun been drinking too much and my belly is not in a good shape now so much for drinking beer. Need to get back on track stay focus for this week study mission I have something in mind I hope I can full fill it, I am to desire what I desire at my age.Being 19 years old does not make me too immature to know what I want, make me unwise or unable to strive for the things I desire so desperately.
But the fact that my young age supposedly makes me too baby-ish to know what I want and see my goals as great ones is just a put-down that I will not stand for.

JUNE

 Hello, it's finally the month I've been waiting for JUNE. Life is just so dull back to where Its suppose to be, I want life to either rewind a year or fast forward a year. I don't want to be in the present.  There are days when I don't even know what to do with myself anymore. Missing my crazy homies terribly.  I need to focus on my finals now. I'll be back posting with happy thoughts,x!